Aug 14, 2011

Another lesson

"failure is simply the opportunity to begin again,
This time more intelligently."
                -Henry Ford-


Another cry
another failed try
Another dead end
Another hurt to tend.
Another weight to unload
Another walk down the road
Another show of injustice
Another ride through unfavored justice.
Another of life's phase to turn
Another lesson to learn....

SOME STUFF I BELIEVE!!



I BELIEVE.
I believe in God as the utmost prime in my life n I so don’t apologize 4 it.

I believe anyone who has stumbled into that amazing love should acknowledge its worth and not b ashamed of Him.
-all others fit together around Him.

I believe in beauty
-which is only made perfect when the beauty inside is more than the beauty out.

I believe in choices
I just dnt trust d excuses we mk when we ve 2 tk responsibility 4 em.

I believe in the power of words
That whats said at d right time can change years of unnecessary bitterness 

But most importantly I believe in growth
That it’s not really how bad or how dramatic our life story is
But growing out 2 be a better person despite all the horrible odds.

I believe in acceptance.
That we have the responsibility of accepting who we are before giving others the permission to do so.

I believe in mistakes
That its humanly sane 2 make them but its saner to learn 2 be a better person from them.

I believe in forgiveness
That no one is really worth us whiln away time containing unforgivn emotions in us for their sake

I believe in family
That we have passed the first phase of love if we are able to love em NO MATTER their imperfections.

I believe in knowledge and wisdom
That’s its useless if not used right yet it’s excellent if it’s wrapped in Christ

I believe in love
That it’s a choice we make to learn and stay around someone to hold their hand as we move together through the growth process

I believe that love ain’t pain and pain ain’t love.
Love is humble, it’s is commitment, it is joy, it is peace, it is hard work and yet sometimes real easy, its perseverance, it’s a smile in d rain and it’s a blessing that exists.

I believe in living
I believe being alive today is proof of our importance to the existence of today needing you in it.

I believe in help
That the experiences God brings our way are basically because of others whose lives need 2 be better through us.

I believe in innocence
That it can’t be mistaken as ignorance or being naïve, that it holds beauty that is enviable

I believe in joy.
That sometimes laughing out loud is satisfying and when your laughter is lasting, u are wonderful at heart.

I believe in friendships
That they are aids through life’s phases, and nuggets of gold we sometimes keep forever.

I believe in service
Giving it with joy and appreciating others for it.

I believe in maturity
That it is never conferred on us as we age, maturity begins in the mind.

I believe in trust
That there is more to it than just a word, that it grows just like a little child does

I believe in taking life easy
Doing the best we can and not fretn and worrying, and how it’s easier when God is the pillar we lean on.

I believe in the theories of nurture
That most of the things we do we have learnt, if they aren’t good we ve to learn to be the best we wanna c in ourselves.

I believe there things that are unattractive
Pride, arrogance, attention seeking, gossipy, low self esteem, looking down on others, talking 2 much ….
A realization of these traits is 1 thng, endeavoring to be better by changing a character learnt takes guts.

I believe in attraction
That it can be won at first sight yet it’s easier 2 confuse attraction with love, however, the right dose of confidence is a real attraction booster.

I believe in grace
That for real, something’s would be impossible if not 4 d grace of God that we unmeritedly gain

I believe in listening.
That there is so much to learn even from lil kids if we just opened our ears and hearts to listen

I believe in sin
Dats what’s wrong is wrong and what’s right is right-darn the philosophies (that right and wrong are relative) and the excuses we all give to make ourselves feel good!

If ur conscience ain’t dead enuf to realize the wrong, then strive do to the right when u are convicted.

I believe that no one is perfect
dat everyday is our opportunity to work at attaining perfection of a sort, yet it ain’t an excuse 4 wallowing in wrong.

I believe in falling down and getting up
But please don’t jump into a deep ditch just cuz of a fleeting desire 

I believe in healing
That even those w the strongest emotions nd 2 gain healing from the past n focus on the future

I believe dat Solomon is right
When he says life is meaningless and a chasing after the wind, because there r days that life becomes jux dat.

I believe in heaven
Dats it will be wiser 2 die and realize it doesn’t exist done 2 live ur worst n die n realize dat it does exist.

I believe life should be enjoyed
Celebrated, whether u live in a big house or smaller one , in Africa or some other place, we must enjoy d life u ve …

I believe in worship
That a closer look at God’s handiwork reveals how everything was awesomely made 4 His glory.

I believe I am a work in progress
And I ain’t there yet, but I will get there.- later or sooner -sooooon!hehehe!!

I believe
That everybody has their own sth they believe in, it’s best if we respect others believes instead of always forcing(its nicer if u convince gently) at them 2 accept ours!.

And I believe
There is always a day u are awakened into believing something that u have wrongly believed, when you are convicted to know THE better way, ( n u ve a 180degree paradigm shift) I believe walking in that change is growth(if its positive that is!)lol.

MAMA TAUGHT ME!!!!


 Hundreds of dewdrops to greet the dawn,
Hundreds of bees in the purple clover,
Hundreds of butterflies on the lawn,
But only one mother the wide world over.

           ~George Cooper~




Mama was  stingy with ‘I love you’s
I Remember my total surprise the one time she said it in da kitchen
Taught me love was proved In actions and not  In easy empty words

Mama was quick to give the whoppin’
Taught me quite quickly wrong from right - no excuses!

Mama  was absent many times
Didn’t know till later she just meant for me to find my way;
Know how to walk when I’m all alone, keep my balance when there is no1 to fall on, keep running the race when no one is cheering on the sidelines!

Mama taught me beauty didn’t stay on painted faces
Something on the inside does  a gr8ter magic on the outside

Mama taught me not to expect heroes, ‘superman’ and ‘captain planet’ never stepped out of tv-screens!
Taught me too early that the heroine was right inside of me

Mama was good at forgetting birthdays
Taught me it was a day to appreciate God for the grace to live another moment.
Its God’s present to me. So its not less special if pple 4get their presents

Mama taught me church
That you gotta live the church if  you choose to go to church
Aint no time to play church in this lifetime


Mama taught me to use my hands
Taught me to learn to do it on my own so nothing will be left undone cuz I didn’t know how.

Mama was never convinced whatever reason I was sad was reason enough to remain sad
Mama basically taught me to laugh out loud despite!( still learning thou)


Mama  taught me people weren’t perfect
By daring not to be perfect
Sometimes making me see her mistakes so I do better when its ma time


Mama  taught me ;
life would knock you dead
 raise you high,
dust you up,
suck you in ,
wash you out,
drain you up,
fill you in
spit you out
praise you loud
hail you down
spin you in nauseating circles
and manage to make you laugh and cry all at once
And defined learning from the process as ….. growth!


Mama taught me every time she was around
Even when her silence and absence did surround

Mama  taught me in hard ways
Sometimes through easy days

Sometimes after a beating
Other times her eyes would show the meaning

Mama’s  humour is soul exhilarating
And her cussing is (believe me)  mind stimulating!

Cheers to my mama!
My chiefest critique
My fashion advisor
My hair expert
My weight  checker
My most disagreeable person
my dad's wife
having the knack of being real complicated yet interestingly sweet all at once
and Definitely the ‘brownest woman I know’  :D                                                                                                                                                                                                             to ma Maama!
Love u more everyday..xx
thanx 4 being the first rate version of you.

Aug 1, 2011

This Is Where I Say Goodbye


I tiptoe away from the bed
Taking my last look at you deep in sleep
i hurriedly put on my clothes
and let my way out of your room
like an abused wife running away at dawn
I fled from your side never again to return
I don’t belong here…!


Yesterday I decided it was over
I looked in your eyes and asked us apart
You held me tight like an adorable child asking for me to stay
I closed my eyes carried away into the chambers of the past
Too suddenly I saw an existence that appeared and disappeared in a daze
Then, I was sure I wanted you away
But now, lost in wonder as to why I so stayed long,
I remember I knew not of anywhere else to escape


Today I watch you as I disappear in the distance
A reality now a fading silhouette
Rolling away with the currents of memories
I’m proud to let rid of you
To finally get the courage to say NO
To your decorated torments,
your persuasive evils,
unending frustrations,
hateful addictions,
haunting fears,
deceitful lures….,
Ridiculous how anyone can be accustomed to slavery
Shameful how many slaves are too ignorant 2 recognize they are bound….




I breathe sighs of relief
Basking in the sunlight of freedom
I walked into a radiance that certifies peace
My heart swells and throbs moment by moment
I finally embrace love that's real.
I actually smile now.
And it reaches my heart.
In here, sometimes I cry, but amazingly my smile never fades
I never knew till now someone had cleared my debts and taken up my every wound in my place
No more garbage,my trash is emptied. No gimmicks!
Everyday I grow, I let go and learn sth new
Its crystal clear this where I need, want and was made to belong

This is indeed WHERE I SAY GOODBYE, Pain
Joy in Christ offers something that a lifetime in you couldn’t give even for a second.